Upon arriving at Pennsylvania I’ve been pretty observant about everything. Seeing the new house I’ll be living in for a month and a half, seeing the older side of living around, and getting to know the people around me. It’s been quite an interesting thing. It’s hard to explain the thoughts I have about this place. I guess I’m excited and confused. I’m excited because I’m growing, seeing different places, reaching different people, living this completely different lifestyle. I’m confused though; about how I’m suppose to go about things. I don’t understand why some people think certain ways. It intrigues me to the fullest of my interest why people believe what they believe. I guess when you’ve grown up around the ‘older’ religious ways, you carry them with you – whether you live by it or not, you always know that side of it. Well, I don’t know that side of it. All I know is the other side. The contemporary side of thinking. The ‘I don’t have that many rules I live by, all I know is that Jesus loves me and I’ll follow where ever He takes me’ sort of thinking.
I know a conservative church. I’ve been there; I’ve grown up in it. I do take that with me, but as a memory, not lifestyle.
Right now, in this moment, I’m not confident. I’m not confident in myself to do anything great. I know God is knocking at my door, waiting to show me something, I just can’t see Him through the peep hole.
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